TrashedWithABitterSweetEnding19’s blog

  1. I just NEED TO STOP thinking, in general. That's my problem and the reason everything that's wrong with me. When you over think, you overheat. When you overheat, you over hurt. I seem stronger than I really am. We all create that tough-guy disguise. We pretend we are invincible and try to fake that 'nothing can hurt me' mentality when everyone is watching . . ....

  2. I am your worst nightmare . . . and this is as real as I want it to be! I NEVER said that this would be easy, but you're only the best of a bad situation. "Everyone you look up to is really just as fucked up as you . . . " "You don't need to hide my friend, for I am just like you" I wish I knew then, what I know now. Maybe it's just my rebellious...

  3. Procession of regression//

    Tue, Aug 9, 2011 at 11:57 PM 0 Comments

    "Memory is a tenuous thing - flickering glimpses flashing before my eyes, each different and changing every second. BLACK and WHITE . . . like ancient, decomposing film. Happiness escapes me there. Where faces are vague and yesterday seems to come tied up in ribbons of pain, blending and fading together as one. Happiness ??? I've tried to look for it . . .instead, in...

  4. Sweetheart, you must be mistaken.

    Tue, Aug 9, 2011 at 9:52 PM 0 Comments

    Nobody makes mistakes like me . . . It's not even just a simple or regular mistake, everything I do or at least TRY to do is a disaster. ALL THE TIME. Me being me, all I do is just make it worse. It's like . . . the ONLY reason I was put on this planet is so I can be miserable my whole life and forced to watch everyone in the world with their perfect, happy...

  5. THE ONE, ' SHOULD BE ' GOLDEN RULE : Korn is the only so-called GOD that we all know of and can relate to on many levels in life. (If you disagree, I honestly don't understand why you even made an account on this website). Reality check ---> I am a MUTT. My ethnic background includes . . . German, Irish, Italian, Polish, Scottish, French, Cherokee Indian, Swedish,...

  6. Easier Said Than Done . . .

    Thu, Aug 4, 2011 at 4:00 PM 0 Comments

    "If it makes you less mad . . . I'll die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want, I already know what I am. And if it makes you less mad . . . we'll stop talking again and you can tell me how vile I already know I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age, I'll be a brand new day in a life you hate. A crown of gold, a heart that's harder than stone and it hurts a...

  7. "Let's take a step back and look at how the years have progressed . . . Progression, recession, reflection in depth. Because we all know in death, that 'real eyes' define the test. Rather than sheep and the shepherd continually butting heads. Or wouldn't you shed your skin? Your vendetta towards the sin you're systematically in? Because we're fearful of fear and fear makes us...

  8. Hopeless With A Cause//

    Thu, Aug 4, 2011 at 3:17 PM 0 Comments

    "Truth. A flexible concept. You could be deceitful or sugar coat . . . I knew this guy. Story-ever changing. Metamorphosis. He'd call me on the telephone. (I was always telling him that he was my only one and my heart was melting . . . ) Little did I know, behind my back he was selling the same story . . . the same words. My heart sunk, my heart is broken and I'm dead...

  9. "i wish i was blind . . . is life all about the beauty we see with our eyes? or the feelings we have on the inside? in vanity. well, i guess vanity is fine . . . what is vanity, but pride? and what's pride, but being proud of appealing to one's eye? well, their eyes are alright and i'm sure they see just fine . . . but can they see the true you and the feelings you hide? can...

  10. If It Means A Lot, To You.

    Wed, Aug 3, 2011 at 5:45 PM 2 Comments

    "identity; it's priceless. entice us. a crisis inciting, exciting, and frightening . . . butterfly feeling inside the both of us. a joke to us? it never was. this joke at most a joke because we're broken up. thus, i've found a way to bore inside my head to get the knowledge out. falling out of line in and line out. is college out? it must be. a professor - confessing, professing...

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