what am i searching for?

Thu, Sep 29, 2011 at 10:39 PM By: RicciHeartsJD

A missing piece of my self seems to have been erased. How, I don't know. Why do I search for it? Sometimes I feel as though my life isn''t going the way I all thought. I seemed to have changed into something I am not. How do you go back? How do you search for yourself after already making a life with the self that you are not? Do you get up and leave, to never return? Or you do push it aside and let it eat you alive until you die? I am at a blockade and I cannot break through. Help me out. What do I do?

  1. cdu avatar

    On Sun, Feb 12, 2012 at 6:08 PM, cdu said:

    Stop searching and it may appear.

  2. Fairynuff1979 avatar

    On Fri, Sep 30, 2011 at 5:06 AM, Fairynuff1979 said:

    I am in the same place as you hunnie. I feel like I've lived my life for other people; How they wanted me to live my life.

    I looked in the mirror and realised thst I am not the person I should have been. I am trying to move on from it and try to scrape back the life I should have had but it's really hard.

    I think you have to do what feels right to you now.

    I left the man I loved becaused my family didn't think he was good enough for me and I listened to them. It ruined my life and I love him as much now as the day I met him. I'm trying to fix it but I'm hitting a stone wall. I wont stop trying though because I will only regret it if I do. You have to decided how strong you are and how much you want the things you denied yourself.

    I hope you start feeling better soon about things.


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