Things I'd say and have said.

Wed, Aug 8, 2012 at 12:12 PM By: Stephen ll

To my father:

Would say: Your life is a lie. Every time i ever said sorry what i really meant was you should be rotting in some hole for destroying our family. You held my mom at gun point, choked my sister, made me spy on my mom told me it was for my own good. i wish that day before easter you had been dragged to jail on your knees through dirt which deserves life more than you do. how dare you do the things youve done and ask me to lie. I love you dad, but when you die i want to burry you myself.

What i do say: "nothing"

To my mother:

Would say: I realize, mom that you never abused us. But this family being torn apart was just as much your doing as it was my fathers. 11+ years we spent being told lies about our parents. You told just as many as our shit dad did. Your not as innocent as you make your self sound. I hope someday you can forgive yourself.

What i do say: I love you.

my closest friends:

Would say: I need you.

What i do say: Thank you.

  1. Stephen ll avatar

    On Tue, Aug 14, 2012 at 10:56 PM, Stephen ll said:

    Thanks for the support guys. Goin through tough shit. i know its all in the past but troubles of the mind and heart dont know time.

  2. Katie Levy avatar

    On Mon, Aug 13, 2012 at 6:43 PM, Katie Levy said:

    I knew this site would be great for you to post on. Korn fans understand you and can help. Thanks for being so open, I respect that about you =]

  3. Tamar avatar

    On Wed, Aug 8, 2012 at 8:47 PM, Tamar said:

    Been there. Haven't really said it. To my father, at least. But I think I will some day.

    Sorry you had to live through that. Good to hear that you have friends and reach out to them. Liked your writing too.

  4. Igo4KORN avatar

    On Wed, Aug 8, 2012 at 7:45 PM, Igo4KORN said:

    Been there too...lies are the worst..... Be happy with Katie, your friends, and enjoy what you have.

  5. Katie Levy avatar

    On Wed, Aug 8, 2012 at 4:50 PM, Katie Levy said:

    Really well said. You should write songs and poems you put it together so fluidly and in a very understandable manner. And thank you. Love and friendship is the leastwe could give you. =]

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