MontezCrow’s blog
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I can't see! I can't breathe! What is wrong, what's beneath. I am you, you are me! I'm not here to hurt you. I'm just stuck in this shell! What do I do, how did I get here! Blackout, and now I'm somebody else! This is not me! SCHIZOPHRENIC! (PERSONALITIES) ANTI SOCIAL, BI POLAR! BORDERLINE! (DISORDER) INTROVERT, PSYCHOSOCIAL! THIS ISN'T NORMAL! (IN SOCIETY!) I AM YOU, YOU ARE ME!...
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I LOOK UP!. To see a black cloud. It's my anger, every hurt feeling I had. I'm not crazy just a little upset. Hold my eyes open so you can see me cry. I will not run, I will not hide this time. Your gonna finally see what you do to me. I'm not happy, I'm not laughing. I'm just waiting for all this to end! Dying Inside a little at a time. God, is this the way it has to be. You can hate me,...
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Stick by what you believe. Don't ever let them tell you your wrong. Don't ever let them make you fall. Just keep your head up and hold on! Your gonna make it, you'll see that you do belong. LIfe ain't fair but it does get better. So much better, don't you ever let go! DON'T HURT YOURSELF! THERE ARE HEARTS THAT WANT TO HELP! YOUR NOT ALONE, I WILL HOLD YOUR HAND. MY FRIEND, YOU DON'T HAVE...
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Alone. In your head. By yourself. Are you mad? Full of hate. Who's to blame. You fuckin did this to yourself, so don't look at me. It's not my fault you didn't get it! It's not my fault you won't admit it! That you did it, and don't get it. It's not my fault so don't point your finger at me! Alone. In your cell. Going through hell. Are you mad? You despise. But your the one that set...
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All alone in this dark place. I want to run away, but I never do, cuz i'm too afraid of what you might do. So I sit here all alone, in my head i believe i'm going home. Talking to myself, I've come full circle. With a realization that I might be deserted here. All I got is my life to give. If I'm to stay here, then I don't even want to live. I found your letters, now please let me go! I...
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Why am I running, I need to stay. If I don't confront the problem it's liable to kill me. Consume me, eat me up inside. And I'm not done I want to enjoy my life. If I die, atleast I'll know I tried. All the bullshit will be cleared of my mind. All this time I've been trying to hide. Not from anyone but myself! Is it me your looking for? I'm sorry I didn't mean to be this way! Is it me...
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LEAVE-ME-ALONE! What do you want. I've said it a million times. I'm the one who lost but I am not the loser. So don't you dare go around, and try to accuse me. Don't have to believe me, Now I'm in the center of attention and the eyes are dead on. Get em away from me. How to get out, were to run. I just want to find my way back home. I'M LOST! I'm sad to say, I didn't learn. Who I was, and...
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Look at all these idiots looking at me. Like I'm a sideshow/circus-freak. Tear through, better get out of the way. I won't be mocked again, I won't be hurt today! LIke a sponge I soak all you're words in! Sit here contemplating as my head spins. My fist shall show me the way. I refuse. My heart will heal the pain. Once I'm over you! I'll give (BUT I WON'T BE USED) I'll fight (BUT NOT...
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When I look up to the sky! All the memories come alive. I feel like I'm a bird, like I can fly. I feel like I could lay here all the time. In this Place of comfort. Were my problems cease to exist. For one moment I'm happy. For just a moment I'm free! Another life were I have everything. Cuz here everything don't have me! All the bright sun shining in my face! If there is a heaven...
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Ohhhhhhh! I'm gonna write what I want to write. Say what I wanna say. Do what I wanna do. You've no control. I'll speak when I want to. Eat what I want to eat. Take what I want to take. You've no control. I'm gonna hurt what I want to. Fuck what I want to. Listen to what I want to. You've no control. How's it feel to have no say so! How's it feel when you're the one left alone. How's...
