I'm in Class. Making this Short.

Fri, Apr 18, 2014 at 8:17 AM By: Mitchie

I'm in my Digital Communications class. I'm about to have to give a speech for a fake running of "President of the United States". I just chose to read the suicide note of Kurt Cobain. My grandpa has 2 to 8 weeks, or 2 to 7 now. Thanks for your thoughts and support. I love you, guys. It's so awesome to log on and see that I have 5 or 7 messages in my inbox. You guys are just so creative and unique. I want to say once again that you are all always welcome to message me and tell me some ideas for our community. Some of us are considering making something special online for everyone! I hope you're all doing well.

As for myself? Eh, I've been pretty down. I still don't feel like I can have emotions, though. I kind of broke down at the very start of this week when talking to my legal guardian. As you guys know, I have ADD and Severe Anxiety, both of which i will daily take medication for until my death. TO solve the problem of my current sadness, I'm taking double anxiety medication this week. I guess that's how they solve these things. My visit with PaPa went okay, but he just didn't talk much. That's really abnormal for him. I felt strange. As before hand mentioned, he's got 2 to 7 weeks now. i found out specific details of his current state. He's got huge tumors on his kidneys. He still has his brown hair, but he's lost even more weight. Gosh, I love him.

Well, another note of self pity... I'm a 16 year old high school student with a 20 year old mind. Pretty socially awkward. As I told you guys, I have Attention Deficit Disorder. Well, our End Of Course Exams are coming up. I have a 504 form, which is for kids who have learning disorders. So, when I take tests, I take it with a small group of kids who have this form as well. It's a more quiet environment with less people and we receive a longer time period to take our exams. Well, in Geometry class yesterday, our teacher told our class where everyone has to go for their exams coming up. The kids like me have to go to library. The other kids asked why. She told them we just get extra time on our test. Well, someone said it's because they can't read by themselves and then a boy adds that he wishes he was in ALE classes (Special Education) so he could get special treatment, too. We have Learning Disorders, we're not mentally handicapped. Needless to say, I've always been insecure about many things, including ADD.

I really appreciate everyone's messages, comments, and love. You guys are absolutely amazing. I'll be getting on more often soon, especially after all these dreadful exams. I love you, guys!

  1. SAFLove avatar

    On Mon, May 5, 2014 at 12:44 AM, SAFLove said:

    How did the suicide nolte go i love kurt cobain.. sucha lovely depressed soul he was..

  2. Mitchie avatar

    On Mon, Apr 21, 2014 at 8:02 AM, Mitchie said:

    Thanks to all of you. It it so amazing to get on here and see all the comments supporting and encouraging me. You guys are absolutely amazing. Please message me if you need anything at all, or even just to talk! I'm so grateful that you guys read these!

  3. ScReaMingShibA avatar

    On Sun, Apr 20, 2014 at 12:58 AM, ScReaMingShibA said:

    Well that makes two of us feeling pretty down lately :( But I'm happy to see you were able to get back on here&make a post, I thought you bailed on us lol jk jk But as far as the exams go, I believe kids are just beyond ignorant, too immature to realize that it is a learning disorder and not some form of special treatment. I remember when I would have students in my class and they were taken to the back of the room to work on their exams. It was not because they were mentally incapable of doing it by themselves. It was for, just as you said, to work in a quiet space and to have more time to complete it. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I'm sure that you will do well on your exams, good luck !! Also, I just wanted to say that I pray the best for your grandfather.

  4. euphorious avatar

    On Sat, Apr 19, 2014 at 5:25 PM, euphorious said:

    sorry to hear about grandpa!! :( kudos on the kurt cobain note!! good luck with exams and just keep positive.

  5. avangardeify avatar

    On Sat, Apr 19, 2014 at 6:13 AM, avangardeify said:

    Sorry to hear about your grandpa too. :( It's very hard, I lost my granny 3 years ago and she was one of my favourite people. But you'll always remember the good times you spent together and he'll be forever in your heart! Take good care of yourself and don't let anyone put you down, I think you're a very sweet and special person (from what I could read in your blogs ;)). also, if you ever need anything let us know. xxx

  6. Kaji avatar

    On Sat, Apr 19, 2014 at 12:08 AM, Kaji said:

    I have some friends with learning disorders, so to a certain extent, I can empathise with your situation. It's not like they asked to have the difficulties they've faced in the classroom.

    I hope your exams go well. Do your best!

  7. Tammie avatar

    On Fri, Apr 18, 2014 at 9:18 AM, Tammie said:

    Hang in there kiddo!!! Sorry to hear about you papa. Good luck on your exams! :)

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