Swinging Between Life and Death
I am sorry for the absence of posts and being on Korn Chat. Not only has my anxiety kicked my ass, but my whole body just wants to kill itself. I was in the hospital recently with some mystery illness that "we may never know what happened".. Fuck. I am so done. I can't be living like this!! Sorry, I am exhausted and fed up with my own body coming up with reasons to fuck me up to the point of barely living.
April, freaking 9 pound fucking tumor that appalled the doctors because they didn't know how I was still even alive at that point.
June, fucking puked for ten days straight and the doctors deny that it had something to do with my surgery back in April. It had affected my diaphragm and stomach.. sooooo, it had to been have the surgery!
Sorry for such scrambled thoughts, my mind and body don't seem to cooperate with each other anymore.
I love you all and I hope you're enjoying yourselves and not being afraid of everything!!!!
After what happened recently, I can barely ride in a car anymore. FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!
I am trying to do better and my body just loves saying "fuck you", well fuck you too body.