Two-faced Conniving Bitches
It seems funny to me how fucked things can be. Every time I get ahead, I feel more dead.
Seems like no matter what you do, nobody can appreciate you being 'there' whether it be physical, emotional, or whatever. Instead, its all about themselves and what MORE you can do for them. I do my best to 'listen' to every person I come in contact with if they're a friend, family, or even a complete stranger and it has it's advantages and debt. As a good person and good friend, I believe the best thing you can do for someone is to listen and apprehend and not become judgemental. There is a huge difference between encouragement and contempt that most people don't seem to realize. "Oh, look at the homeless bum on the street! Haha!" - you don't know their story, so, why ridicule and make a mockery out of someone when they're [obviously] down? Does it make you happy? Save your breath for something more important.
I can't wait to rip my eyes out and look at you. Peace through pain is precious especially when its done by you.
People torture and lie to themselves more than ever! It's the 'cool' thing to do! Like, starting a family when you don't have the foundations. It does not surprise me one bit that single mothers are on the rise and its so fucking unfair to the kids - everyone is so worried about the fucking children and yet nobody worries about their broken homes?! But of course, its not their fault; its nobodies fault! Right?! I know a 29 year old father who thinks child support is enough to sustain his child's enthusiasm and blames the mother for not being able to attend to his own kid. If he put in the effort he would be there but its easier to blame the mother and pay the child support. As one saying goes; obvious bullshit is obvious! I don't waste my time helping selfish people out and that's true for this dad - I don't talk to him. If you're going to lie to yourself, what makes me think you're not going to lie and deceive me? I'm not looking to receive anything from anyone but I don't need liars in my life, its complicated enough. Lying is too easy, too cheap, and leads to dreadful conclusions. Its a big, fat-ass disease that gets worse and worse.
Always we're taking, waiting for signs....hollow life!
The worst thing about people, today, is desperation; fear of not being loved, not having this or that...when we should appreciate what we have and not take gratification. For example: a lot of folks start families in hope that it'll fill the void for whatever emptiness is inside; desperate attempt to stabilize a life. Or using drugs. Or drinking. It's all to fill a void. And it's pathetic as can be but we've grown accustomed to it and refuse to acknowledge.