Suicide was never really an option. No matter how you treat me, I will always love you. I do not blame you. I blame the ones who hurt you and stole your trust from you in your childhood. I will remember what you are capable of because it will happen again. When? I don't know but please let there be less blood shed. The knife is not meant for you, its meant for those who love you but can't otherwise escape.

You gave me life and I am in debt to you for that.