So I'm a Loser who fucking cares!
Have you ever looked in the mirror and saw so much INSANE looking back at you that it scared you? Lately I've been facing that EVERY DAY. For example I chose to create an account on here not only because I'm a CRAZY huge fan of KoRn but also because I highly doubt theres any chance of running into anyone I know! I am so anti-social that I can only have friends that I don't have to have a responsibility towards! But also think of it this way my school was so small that I got most daring senior superlative for being open about my sexuality and religious differences ROFL YEAH. Of course we're all different people in high school and I was way more daring and 100 times more social back then. Now I just want to hide, not to mention there are NOOOOOOOO people like me to be found! I am so surrounded by jacked up pick up trucks, blaring country music and chewing tobacco I could drown in this sea of anti-diversity! I think that, and the hallucinations I have, are the main cause of my problem! I desperately need a friend to blare KoRn with while we make fun of the Christian sub-culture children while pounding liquor on our way to a metal bar! FUCK I miss my friends!!!!!
Instead I live my life through Jonathan's lyrics, KoRn's sound...the screaming hatred and anger and PRETEND that life will get better. That one day I'll find myself with a million friends again and I'll be happy and normal....that someone will want to be around me without wanting something out of me other than friendship! Oh the bleeding heart dreamers we can be right?