wtf

blaming no one but myself by myself ill be always
awaken with a new life one that can expire any day.
oh how the days go by so slow now
remembering the days of fun and pleasure
no all reminders of how i got this far
this venom creeping through my vains
all for sake of longing for love
this new world i must endure the rest of days
ill never be me again trapped in this new state
of draining energy and tainted blood.
i can only prey for nothing worse to come
yet i know theres always worse to come
in my luck i have found nothing is what it seems
and nothing could ever be what it should
only hope and faith is to be expected. and nothing more
wishing i could have been smarter than i was.
thinking i was like a god, nothing can touch me.
bleeding now can infect an insect and crying can only break my own heart.
no one to care about why they fall only me and this disease