Life on Pills

Wed, Nov 9, 2011 at 12:17 PM By: bloodrelic

I realized early this week as i was taking my morning medication (breakfast) that this is going to be a routine of mine for probably my entire life. It's unfair that naturally my brain doesn't produce the right amount of chemicals for me to live a normal life, so i have to Pop a Pill. All medications I take are prescribed. Over the years of my life i have developed insomnia, OCD, ADD and either Depression or an emotional disorder. I don't know any longer whether the kid that i am every day truly is me. I feel empty, and unmotivated, but i guess thats the price i have to pay for being born with such a fucked up mind. No one knows that i'm as broken as i really am, I hide it well. I'm just the nice kid who makes people laugh. But my mind constantly chugs away at my ego and sanity. I have become feather in the wind, i go wherever the wind blows me. I've given up trying to fight the wind. I hate knowing that I will never truly be myself, but i also know that when i am meds free i fall to incredibly depressing depths. I do my best to be society's slave, like everybody else, but i will never learn to enjoy it.
Korn keeps me going.

  1. sindee fink avatar

    On Thu, Nov 10, 2011 at 5:45 PM, sindee fink said:

    I know how u feel. But you have to understand medication is very important. do not miss a day. It sucks knowing you have to take pills for the rest of your life but this will make the light at then end of the tunnel brighter. keep your head up and always remember destruction of a person builds character :)

  2. Burnt KoRn avatar

    On Wed, Nov 9, 2011 at 5:27 PM, Burnt KoRn said:

    I'm sorry to here you have to take so many things to get through your day. ko®n also gets me through very tough times. I have been told I should be on at least 3 med's and even took them for a while! But alas I just cant afford every thing they want me on. So i keep going the only way I know how. with ko®n. God bless ko®n AND you!

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