I promised to write soon something so..

Sun, Apr 13, 2014 at 4:47 AM By: Silverthorn

..I'll keep my promise. I don't know why I'm writing my personal stuff for random people .__: By the way, I was BloodLust.

Though years, huh?
It's been almost 5 years since the promblems and struggling began. First I was only depressed and that kind of stuff. Almost every night I was only crying in my room. I can't even remember how bad condition I was.

Last years spring, well it was some sort of turning point. Everything went well atleat I thought so. But the truth is I was in horribly ill. I started to have mania/hypomania. All I think was that I was only very happy as weird as it sounds.

Bipo, they call me. Most people think I'm crazy even when I'm depressed. Well, actually I don't care what peeps think about me. Too selfish, heh :--D

Lets get back to year 2014.

Last week. Or should I just say Thursday the 3rd April in 2014?
I did something really stupid :--| I just want to say first that I don't want to die,
I just want to get the anguish and all the crap out of me and I want to be honest. I took some of my pills. An overdose. Well I COULD have died but I didn't, only felt so f*cking tired. My (so called) friend called finnish emergency number and the paramedic nurses took me to hospital.

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Well, now need to go to bake bread.

I'll next time write happier stuff, hopefully

Cheers,
Silverthorn (former BloodLust)

  1. ScReaMingShibA avatar

    On Mon, Apr 14, 2014 at 9:39 PM, ScReaMingShibA said:

    I'm very sorry to hear about your struggles in life. But I need to tell you that your life IS worth living. If it helps you or brings you any comfort, you are not alone. I too have wanted to give up on my life. It is not because I want to die, but only because I just want to get rid of my pain. However, I believe it helps a lot to find something that makes you happy&brings you joy !! And if no one has ever told you this, I just want to say that I am so glad you are here&alive today. God bless. Stay strong !!

  2. avangardeify avatar

    On Mon, Apr 14, 2014 at 7:15 AM, avangardeify said:

    Don't give up honey! Life sucks (we probably all know) but it's still worth living, there are so many beautiful things around us. All the best, we're here for you! xxx

  3. ALongWayDown avatar

    On Mon, Apr 14, 2014 at 3:27 AM, ALongWayDown said:

    I'm relieved you're still here. Life is hard, but if you give up, what then?

  4. MikeyD avatar

    On Sun, Apr 13, 2014 at 6:24 AM, MikeyD said:

    Very happy you made it through! I hope you will be able to love yourself and your life. It is a precious gift this life!

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