I promised to write soon something so..
..I'll keep my promise. I don't know why I'm writing my personal stuff for random people .__: By the way, I was BloodLust.
Though years, huh?
It's been almost 5 years since the promblems and struggling began. First I was only depressed and that kind of stuff. Almost every night I was only crying in my room. I can't even remember how bad condition I was.
Last years spring, well it was some sort of turning point. Everything went well atleat I thought so. But the truth is I was in horribly ill. I started to have mania/hypomania. All I think was that I was only very happy as weird as it sounds.
Bipo, they call me. Most people think I'm crazy even when I'm depressed. Well, actually I don't care what peeps think about me. Too selfish, heh :--D
Lets get back to year 2014.
Last week. Or should I just say Thursday the 3rd April in 2014?
I did something really stupid :--| I just want to say first that I don't want to die,
I just want to get the anguish and all the crap out of me and I want to be honest. I took some of my pills. An overdose. Well I COULD have died but I didn't, only felt so f*cking tired. My (so called) friend called finnish emergency number and the paramedic nurses took me to hospital.
Well, now need to go to bake bread.
I'll next time write happier stuff, hopefully
Silverthorn (former BloodLust)