What the hell

Fri, May 2, 2014 at 12:56 AM By: bayley

I didn't expect my first year at Rolla to come to an end like this. I grew up thinking I would be here for 4 years, graduate, and obtain a successful career. Not once did I believe that it would be so much of a stuggle. My life I though I was going to live has gone down the drain. Before, I thought I knew what it was like to fail. I have never been more wrong.

In sixth grade I was convinced I was going ti stay here with no problem, but outside influences got to me. I found alcohol, I found weed, but the worst was my friends. Never had I ever had a connection with other people before. I loved helping them, putting their needs before my own. I love them, and I am going to have to miss them and go back to the isolation I grew up in. My time will once again be taken up by my parents and their petty rules to keep me from leaving them.

My parents refuse to believe they are sheltering my siblings and me. They want us gone, but take every chance for us to leave.

Sorry for rambling, I just need to vent.

  1. Io_xl avatar

    On Fri, May 9, 2014 at 11:16 PM, Io_xl said:

    It's okay to vent.. keeping my fingers crossed

  2. lukeyluke avatar

    On Tue, May 6, 2014 at 6:48 PM, lukeyluke said:

    I remember when I felt like that too often. Life really did get better.

  3. MikeyD avatar

    On Sun, May 4, 2014 at 10:38 AM, MikeyD said:

    Hang in there! It's great to help people, but if that help is dragging you down, ya gotta cut em loose! Prioritize what is most important to you, regardless of what your parents think, then make it happen!!! Happiness is there waiting for you!!!
    Good luck and I know things will be better soon :)

  4. ScReaMingShibA avatar

    On Sat, May 3, 2014 at 11:13 PM, ScReaMingShibA said:

    I am sorry to hear that things are going so badly for you. I can definitely relate to planning out your life in a certain way and then everything seems to just fall apart. You are not a failure, though. I hope an opportunity comes to you. This is only temporary&it gets better !!

  5. Kaji avatar

    On Sat, May 3, 2014 at 8:14 PM, Kaji said:

    pfloydmaster is spot on: venting is good. You can't keep the lid on a pressure cooker forever, sooner or later it will explode. Hang in there.

  6. pfloydmaster avatar

    On Sat, May 3, 2014 at 4:53 AM, pfloydmaster said:

    IT's good to vent occasionally. Hand in there...life does get better if you will it to. Went through the same struggles but feel like I came out a better person for it. Just don'f give up...

    Just my 1.35 cents (two cents ain't what it use to be ) :)

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