Last Friday

Mon, Feb 6, 2012 at 11:29 AM By: bayley

My gma died november 1st 2011. It was really hard cus i was really close to her. My dad, brother, mom, and i had to clear out her house because we are letting it forclose. Its hard just letting it go because i had so many memories with her there. She was a strong woman and fought it till the end.

So last friday i decided thaat after work i was gunna stop by her old house. When i was there i looked into the front window and nothing was there so tears welled up in my eyes. I usually just walked right in whenever she was alive and i couldnt then. I walked to the front steps, tried the lock, and bawled like a baby because its still hard to belive shes gone. I miss her so much even tho she did have her mood swings.

Across from her old house is a playground that i used to go to when i was younger so before i left i sat on the swings. I was there for a good 10 minutes and was crying the whole time, knowing that ill never have any fun like i used to whenever i go back. The entire time i was all alone, just like i feel now, in class, full of 24 kids.

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    On Tue, Feb 7, 2012 at 11:50 AM, KoRnChiK18 said:

    Condolences for your loss. I too know how it is to feel utterly alone. Especially with a room full of people who are too simple minded to just stop and ask if you are okay. I hope all is well and just remember your grandma isn't suffering anymore.

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