Time of Reflection

Mon, May 27, 2013 at 8:26 AM By: Twisted Transistor

Yesterday, as I was sitting in my Sanctuary, the mountains, I began to reflect on my life. What a better day to do so on the day you made your entry info the world.

Looking back I am truly amazed I have survived through so much. The horrific events that tried to break me down to nothing, which I guess succeeded in a round about way, leading me down the road of destruction and the attempt to kill myself several times.

I am so fortunate to have had the strength to turn things around for myself. I decide upon which Wolf I want to feed. ( The Legend of the Two Wolves-Cherokee Wisdom)

The ending thought to my reflection, I am grateful for the musicians, especially koRn , who aid me to shine brighter in more ways than one. I can honestly say I am happy of the woman I am today.

Thank you koRn, I love you!

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    On Thu, May 30, 2013 at 10:21 AM, Twisted Transistor said:

    Sounds good Faust!,I will leave Brenda. at home ;)

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    On Thu, May 30, 2013 at 12:27 AM, Faust said:

    Wow. I want to move close to you and have Pow Wows.

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    On Tue, May 28, 2013 at 7:49 PM, Twisted Transistor said:

    I am not going to hide from you, I still carry the wounds of my past, and even one of these wounds I allow to dictate my future. In addition, I am too much in my head, the song 'Way Too Far' defines this well. I am teaching myself when the tale of the two wolves fails, RUN Get out of there as fast as you can! Or is it the heart? Ethier way I am running!

    Hope is a beautiful thing-embrace it and make it your own. I can tell you it gives me courage and determination to be all that I can be and shout 'fuck you' to anyone who thinks different.

    Kudos to you JayJay on five years! For me the desire for my choice drug will never leave, I take one day at a time and not put myself in an environment where I know it exist. Sucide tendencies prevail sometimes, but I no longer make a plan to act out,, I choose to cry myself to sleepholding out for a new day.

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    On Tue, May 28, 2013 at 10:41 AM, Twisted Transistor said:

    Kind of crazy for me to view this way, but I do JayJay,, I feel koRn pulled me in,you, and many more children of the koRn. JD's own pain relates to that of my own; however it does not give me permission to remain stuck.

    Back to work, I will finish. my thought to you later.

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    On Tue, May 28, 2013 at 10:28 AM, Twisted Transistor said:

    Thank you for the 'Happy Birthday,' your encouragement to not backslide, but mostly your belief in me. Your amazing yourself, love the thoughts in your head, your freeness to express-love you my koRn sister!

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    On Tue, May 28, 2013 at 10:27 AM, jayjay said:

    That sounds like a life that I once lived! It is almost 5 years that I have been on the road on the mend, And suicide was more than a daily thing! I am glad I found so many good people on this site, & just a chat like this gives me hope. It is a good time to be a KORN fan. Blessings my friend.=)

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    On Mon, May 27, 2013 at 12:43 PM, pandemonium23 said:

    First of all, Happy Birthday, and second of all I am glad you survived and realized that everything that has happened to you, good or bad, has made the awesome person you are today, and I hope you would never take any of that back.... ( sorry for the long run on sentence!) I am really happy you are alive and well!

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