Not a really good day/times those days...
can't stop to think 'bout a lot of things... Things that had not been in my head since a lot of time... I think this history with htat girl and the death of a brother's friend put me again in this... I don't have more suicide pulsions but, again I'm thinkin' 'bout the death and it fears me.. That's the first time that I feel that the life is so fragile and you can die every second of your life... I don't like this idea to not having control 'bout this, I know, I had to think "carpe diem", but those times are really strange, plus this girl that lovse me I'm sure and don't had the choice to choose the way she wants to live, put me in those thinks, that she don't had the life she wants too... that's the only person who feel like me for differents things (don't have to say it to know it, both of us knows that)
I had to find a new job too, want to leave my country for another, and I see that I had doin' nothin' in this life, and my life's goes on and on and on... don't have kids, family, could doin' this with her, but the life had decided other things for us... I'm really lost again, having to listen to KoRn again and again, and you can imagine that I really need the new album... :)
I know i'm not to plain, but there's days like that I clearly lost, and it didn't happen since a long long time... Really strange.. Lost