Swan’s blog

  1. time to "turn and face the strain"

    Wed, Dec 7, 2011 at 5:39 AM 1 Comments

    ch-ch-ch- changes.....lololol today is a big deal for me because it's a new beginning. It's the end of my disconnect and not facing reality, that I've been doing for the past 2 years. No more floating around in lala land it's time for me to put on my shit kickers, kick some ass, stop running away and hiding, and get shit DONE!!!

  2. Type O Negative

    Tue, Dec 6, 2011 at 4:31 AM 2 Comments

    just wondering if any of you are type o fans, and if not you should def check them out they are a great band. i'm a huge type o fan, and would like to meet other fans. so just curious to see how many of you are as well =D

  3. Mindfulness

    Mon, Dec 5, 2011 at 1:31 PM 0 Comments

    Only we can sit in our chair in the field of awareness. "We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment, We are choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside This holy reality, this holy experience." "Over thinking, over analyzing, separates the body from the mind" I know I keep quoting Tool but it just fits so well in what I'm learning,...

  4. My Story

    Mon, Dec 5, 2011 at 12:41 PM 2 Comments

    So just a little recent history about me. I have suffered with severe anxiety and depression just about all my life. The past 2 years were real bad to the point I just shut down and disconnected. I couldn't take all the stress anymore so I just didn't give a shit. Sometimes I used drugs and alcohol to help numb myself, but mostly just abused my prescription pills. Three weeks ago I had a...

  5. positive attitude, kids are healthy, it's gonna be a good day =D

  6. Protect yourself, only surround yourself with those who make you happy, the first warning sign you see, put them on the outside of your inner circle so that the pattern can't be repeated. Everyone gets hurt, but no one deserves to suffer.

  7. and it's all because of me!!! no one else but me!!! =D Twirling round with this familiar parabole. Spinning, weaving round each new experience. Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing, this chance to be alive and breathing.

  8. Recovery is a BITCH!!!

    Tue, Nov 29, 2011 at 6:20 PM 3 Comments

    But there ain't no bigger bitch than me!!! ;)

  9. We are the greatest thing that will ever happen to us. Believe it. It makes life much easier.

  10. Stronger, Better

    Sun, Nov 20, 2011 at 4:51 AM 2 Comments

    I do believe that everything in life happens for a reason. Every bad and good thing that happens. Every person that comes in and out of your life was put there for a reason to get you to the place you need to be. I have been in a dark place lately, a downward spiral. I thought I was getting better, but then relapsed. But I learned something, I learned that it was because I was depending on...