Creative juice falling from my brain.......or maybe it's just mince...............
Taking the punches
Feeling the need
Follow the lead
Faking the happy
Sliding down in the dark
Finding it hard to make my mark
Trying to smile though I’m dying inside
Feeling like dirt and I’m trying to hide
All of these feelings inside of me
Wondering if I’ll get the chance to be happy.
Darkness around me
It blinds me
Get me away from the noise
Emotions that bind me
Still need to find me
Feeling alone in a crowd
Maybe this feeling will slowly fade
Thinking of all the stupid mistakes I've made
Regrets they surround me and make everything black
So sick and tired of being stabbed in the back.
The blackness gets deeper
It's hands close round my throat
Make's breathing so hard
Need to find a release.
The weight of the world on my shoulders
When will the pain lift
The knot in my stomach twists like a knife
Will there ever be a relief
Banging in my head making it hard to think
Feeling so bogged down I'm really on the brink
Release, relief they run away
Hands grab my ankles as I climb pulling me back down into the black
Hands that may never let me go
Feel like a prisoner. Need to be free.
The world around me is fuzzy and blurry
I pay no attention anymore.
What I do not see I can't control.
Ignore everything wholly unconnected to me.
Swimming for the surface hoping daylight will burst through.
Hopefully one day the black will turn blue.