They help you

Thu, Jul 7, 2011 at 8:54 AM By: Chon

I can and am not afraid to admit that i was fubar at one point, I hated everything in my life and wanted to leave it all behind. I was being bullied, the people I thought were friends made fun of me because my mom didn't love me at one point because of alcohol abuse or because I was a fucking genius and they were intimidated or my mom pretty much almost fucked up good when she almost died or our low income because dad got laid off and married someone else after the parents divorce who had to take on extra hours and be kinda crabby all of the time. Not to mention 3 kids, all of which have fucked up relationships with their father. I wanted to kill myself, I had a suicide note and knew what I was going to use and when I was going to do it. I didn't attempt, I was gonna, but then I heard a song that helped me out. Falling Away From Me was blaring on the radio, I felt a connection with it, I almost cried but I ceased crying because every time I expressed any sort of emotion I was made fun of, ridiculed, and put down- I'm not a faggot just cause I cried, you're a bitch because you put me down for it -but I wanted to. So I went to the computer and purchased the debut album, the Untouchables album, and See You On The Other Side. This and a combination of building a connection with my older step brother, really helped me, otherwise now I wouldn't be playing shows with my guitars and having people think I am the coolest at my shows. Thank you, I love you.

  1. Nono avatar

    On Thu, Jul 7, 2011 at 3:04 PM, Nono said:

    Thanks for sharing this part of your story. It touched me too

  2. Shawshank avatar

    On Thu, Jul 7, 2011 at 1:22 PM, Shawshank said:

    Thank for posting this man. a lot of us can relate to your story. We are glad you are here. Your post really touched me. Tammie has talked about doing a book with stories like that. You might wanna take a look at her blog or send her a message cuz I think your story definitely should go in there if she does the book. Glad you are with us on the site.

  3. Xusi avatar

    On Thu, Jul 7, 2011 at 10:17 AM, Xusi said:

    For sure! I totally agree ..
    Better out than in!
    Life hurtles us about the place sometimes it's all too overwhelming ><
    The ghosts we carry can consume, eat you up inside.
    So .. why not cry? (X)

    It's a release of inner tension, it clarifies and wipes the slate for a time.
    Leaving us to fight on \m/

  4. BamBam avatar

    On Thu, Jul 7, 2011 at 9:20 AM, BamBam said:

    Its never a bad thing to cry. Crying is a release. So cry away dude.

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