Sun, Jun 26, 2011 at 1:52 AM By: Tape worm

I had a surgery done right before x-mas on my spine. I had a bone spur that was pinching my nerve down into my left arm. It hurt all the time, but finally took the steps needed and saw about having it fixed. Let me tell you the MRI machine scared me to death. At one point I climbed out of it, which the nurse couldn't figure out how I was able to, but I was determined. When I got in for surgery I told the guy, I have major anxiety attacks, and you will have to give me something so I don't freak out on you. Which he said was no problem. They shot some Valium in my IV and they could have been cutting off my leg for all I cared at the time. :) But when they got into my neck they also found I had a ruptured disc and fixed that as well. I healed up really well, and got to go back to work after two months. But that's when the trouble started. My shoulder is very weak. (They keep saying no I have a lot of streight in my shoulder, but I know something isn't right. I have done some physically therapy, which helped a lot, plus I was getting a rub down form this hottie. I graduated from that but towards the end of the week my shoulder is killing me and is shot for the weekend. SO I'm going back to PT and have an appointment with ortho. I'm guessing they are going to shove me into that tube again for another MRI.

This just blows, I was suppose to take my son camping for the first time last night but there was no way I could carry the gear in. So his uncle is taking him/took him. I'm missing yet another "first" for my boy. :( I just hope they have a good time.

But have been going threw all this, just after a year of medial tests, trying to figure out why I don't sleep. They finally have me on some prescriptions that are working now, but usually they find something that works, and a month or two later I'm having some odd ball side effect. Nobody seems to understand why I can't function normally. when that is going on. Just don't sleep for 4 days, and tell me how much ambition you have.

I'm so tired of having to take pills. Not even "happy" pills at that. I feel I'm being a burden on my family. But what the fuck do ya do? I'm still trying to figure this one out. Thanks for the music that has helpped me get threw a lot of this.

Tape worm

  1. Xusi avatar

    On Sun, Jun 26, 2011 at 11:27 AM, Xusi said:

    I feel ya Bro, I know what it's like to be reliant on daily medication and I get the same thoughts too .. it's only natural to worry about the affects on those you love. Sorry you missed out on the camping trip, try not to dwell on it and remind yourself that there will be other special times to share. I think the important thing is to look at how far you've come, all that you've been through .. let that spur you on. I mean you're on the path, you gotta walk it. Try to see past all of this hell and know that there will be a time when all of this is behind you. I sure hope that's soon (X)

  2. ARM avatar

    On Sun, Jun 26, 2011 at 8:00 AM, ARM said:

    Man sorry to hear that your going through so much shit, I really hope this all subsides. Yeh I can't function at all when i've had little or no sleep, just can't think right or communicate. Just gotta keep goin as you know and you've got us lot here for support :)

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